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My mediation journey

19/01/19

So, the insights gained from my 10 day Vipassanā meditation retreat in Aug 2017 allowed my to put my emotional pain from childhood trauma behind me.

As I looked for a new challenge I settled on investigating ‘universal truth and the nature of reality’. So basically the biggest question there is.

I hadn’t realized it at the time but the journey away from suffering, is the same as the journey towards enlightenment, so effectively my methods of exploration, namely reading and mediation, haven’t changed.

So here I am over a year in in my search for ultimate truth, where am i?

I’ve done 6 ayahuasca ceremonies, one intensive zen retreat and have been working with self-inquiry meditation. I’ve also been going through about a book a week.
This is where I am right now. My personal reference point.

There are two realities. The reality in which there is a self and the reality in which there is no-self.

Both realities are completely real when experienced from within that reality.

When within one reality the other reality is not real.
There seams very little point in describing the reality as experienced from the point of view of the no-self.

As regards to the no-self. There is the experience of no-self and the memory of no-self. There is no need to describe the no-self experience to those that are experiencing it or remember it.
There is no point in describing the no-self reality to those that haven’t experienced it, since the no-self is unimaginable.

The biggest change is that suddenly words that made no sense to me 10, 20 years ago all of a sudden make sense.

Dialogue from various past kung fu instructors and tai chi teachers suddenly makes sense. Books on Advaita Vedanta actually makes sense. Even bloody Zen has started to make sense and thats saying something.
So basically the knowledge of ‘universal truth and the nature of reality’ is actually knowable. But it isn’t necessarily communicable.

But since I never set out to be able to communicate anything its all good.

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